Monday Madness: Uh Oh, It's Tuesday

I have not slept much lately

I have a full time (sometimes more than full time job) and then I come home from work, take a deep breath, and try to fill my spare time with those things we need to do as singles. You know, forming relationships, hopefully dating, some form of socializing or another. (Sound familiar? I am sure it does)

I am so tired.

My room is a disaster

I need to do laundry (wore cropped pants last night even though it was cold)

My DVR is totally full

My scripture study is minimal and kinda sloppy

I can't remember the last time I set foot in a grocery store

I am so tired.

I try all day to focus on work; counting the hours until I can go home and relax. Once I make it through the day i walk into my house, survey my world, and am immediately reminded of all the things I should do better. I gear up to accomplish something and then I get a text about watching a movie and am not home again until late. I flop my tired self into bed, sleep for what feels like 5 minutes, then I wake up and do it all again.

So many people keep reminding me that my job right now is to meet people and date. Trying to dispel the guilty I feel as other things start to slip. I know socializing is important and I am having fun. But, sometimes I really do feel like I work two jobs and I crave a day off. Trust me, you would feel guilty too if you saw my room and forgot to post for Monday Madness.

I know we all feel busy (married and single alike). I know that is just life and sometimes I think I have it under control... but this week I just feel tired. I know that some of you reading this would trade places with me in a heartbeat and I do have a really great life but I am so tired.

I think the first step to regaining control is to remember that my DVR exists for me and that the 98% full notice should not haunt me the way it does.

I am my own captain... well at the very least I am captain of my own DVR.